Wednesday, April 30, 2014

April 30: If You Give a Mama Some Basil

I'm attempting a living wall consisting of three planters with live herbs, lettuce and potentially flowers in my kitchen nook. So far I've sustained herbs in one container for about six months. The other two containers hosted strawberries last summer outdoors, and I plan to transport the strawberries later when it warms up a bit. We'll see how all three planters do when in action. It's a fun project and I've loved having something fresh growing in my kitchen this past winter.

Anyway, I was re-potting some fresh basil into this planter on the wall tonight. I cannot smell basil without wanting a caprese salad. Caprese salad brings me to warm summer evenings with a chilled glass of Moscato in hand.

I decided the world needs an adult version of If You Give a Mouse a Cookie. I cannot begin to tell you how many times we read those Laura Numeroff tales. If You Give a Pig a Pancake was my favorite.

If You Give a Mama Some Basil

If you give a mama some basil,
she's going to want some fresh mozzarella to go with it.

She will drive to Graziano Brothers to find the very best cheese.
On the way she will pass the iCubs stadium.
There is a game being played this perfect afternoon.

The mama will park the SUV, nab a ticket and chug a beer while trying to catch hot dogs being shot from a machine at terminal velocity.
The game ends in spectacular fireworks.
The fireworks remind the mama of her daughter.
So she heads to the Dollar Store to get bubbles and sparklers to re-create some magic for her daughter.

On her way to the Dollar Store, the mama passes a shoe shop.
The shoes sparkle.
Sparkle is good.
The mama buys some shoes.

Outside the shoe shop, a small flower bed has a lonely weed growing all alone.
The weed reminds the mama of the basil at home on the counter.
The basil needs to become a caprese salad.
The mama renews her mission.

The mama goes to Grazianos and picks up fresh mozzarella.
And sausage.
And pasta.
And wine.

Arriving home and seeing all the food and the sparklers and the new shoes makes the mama feel festive.
The mama cooks like she has 20 people to feed.
The mama invites over copious amounts of friends to share in the feast.

The food is served.
The wine is poured.
The sparklers sparkle.
The bubbles pop.

When the dust has settled, the last sparkler has twinkled in all its glory, and the guests have gone home, the mama sits down in the kitchen to see the basil on the counter. 
And sighs.

For chances are good, if the mama sees some basil on the counter, she’s going to want some mozzarella to go with it.

(I'll keep my day job...).




Tuesday, April 29, 2014

April 29: B Team

Sometimes when life feels too much, it's nice to do something outside of yourself. We tend to have such small worlds, but we are such a small part of the world.

I was reflecting on time spent as a kid volunteering at the nursing home in Pomeroy. As a part of 4H when I was around 10 or 11, we all adopted residents of the local care center, with particular focus given to those elders who didn't have regular family or friends to visit with them.

There were always those residents who were kind and outgoing, eager for company. They were easy to spend time with every week and readily had volunteers with whom to be matched. We'll call these folks Group A.

Group B were the other residents who were sullen, quiet or uncommunicative. Sometimes their social skills had left them. Other times they had had strokes or other issues associated with aging that made it more difficult for them to communicate. I remember us kids being less eager to be matched with these people. Hands didn't shoot up over these folks. I tended to end up with an adopted grandparent in this group. I always felt like they needed someone to want them - I knew a thing or two about feeling unwanted, relating to the underdog. 

Even when I was young, I loved the challenge of taking someone who wanted to shut out the world and to remind them that they were loved. I don't say this to toot my own horn. I have caused myself rather a great deal of pain in life by chasing love where it wasn't given freely. However, in the care center arena, I think this wish to impart love was really quite beautiful. Especially for a little girl who rather needed support and love herself. It might have been good for me to receive a Group A grandma to love me up. I think it proved more effective to place me in Group B. I had the tenacity for those folks.

Something I was told early on in the nursing home that has always stuck with me was that everyone was loved by someone at one time or another. Each person had a mom who (I pray) looked upon them with love. This simple concept made it easier to give my Group B adopted grandparent respect, consideration, patience. and my time. 

My favorite B lady was Clara. Clara was silent for nearly every visit I had with her. I don't know whether she was aware that I visited her every week for over a year. Sometimes I just sat with her, holding her hand. Other times I'd tell her stories of events from school or bring a book I was into (inevitably a Little House book in that era) and read aloud from it. Clara always just looked out her window at the bird feeder outside, regularly nodding her head. She had a warm spirit but no words.

One day, it was like she woke up. She looked at me. Really looked at me. She thought I was her granddaughter because apparently I have a dimple in my chin when I smile, and this was a trait that skipped a generation in her family. I was so shocked she was talking, I just listening and nodded. She never spoke again.

Eventually, Clara passed away. I adopted another Group B person. I don't know how long I volunteered at the nursing home. I remember I hated the alarm on the door, the smell of the medicine and antiseptic mingling in the halls, the bright lights and the cries of some residents.

But I loved my B team members. 

Kathy Mattea - Where've You Been


Monday, April 28, 2014

April 28: Ani Love

I first discovered Ani Difranco in college. She's a brilliant story teller. 

32 Flavors has such great lyrics, I thought rather than tell you why I love this song, I'd just share Ani's words.

That's the beauty of music, isn't it? Even when we have no words, the music speaks for us.

Squint your eyes and look closer
I'm not between you and your ambition
I am a poster girl with no poster
I am thirty-two flavors and then some
And I'm beyond your peripheral vision
So you might wanna turn your head
'Cause someday you're going to get hungry
And eat most of the words you just said

Both my parents taught me about good will
And I have done well by their names
Just the kindness I've lavished on strangers
Is more than I can explain
Still there's many who've turned out their porch lights
Just so I would think they were not home
And hid in the dark of their windows
'Til I'd passed and left them alone

And God help you if you are an ugly girl
'Cause too pretty is also your doom
'Cause everyone harbors a secret hatred
For the prettiest girl in the room
And God help you if you are a phoenix
And you dare to rise up from the ash
A thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy
While you are just flying past

I never tried to give my life meaning
By demeaning you
And I would like to state for the record
I did everything that I could do
I'm not saying that I'm a saint
I just don't want to live that way
No, I will never be a saint, oh
But I will always say

Squint your eyes and look closer
I'm not between you and your ambition
I am a poster girl with no poster
I am thirty-two flavors and then some
And I'm beyond your peripheral vision
So you might wanna turn your head
'Cause someday you might find you're starving
And eating all of the words you said




Sunday, April 27, 2014

April 27: Rainy Day

Today was a barrage of thunder showers. 

We greeted the weather with jammies, a Playmobil party in the attic, and movies galore. It's such a treat to be in with no where to go and copious amounts of Easter candy left to tide us over.

John Lee Hooker - Boogie Chillen


Saturday, April 26, 2014

April 26: Movie Buff

As a single mama, I rarely get to see anything above PG. I mostly live in an animated world, and I'm not talking South Park. As such, my television/movie knowledge sort of falls into the deep abyss around 2003. 

This makes me a weak link for trivia games with pop culture references. It makes me an easy companion for movie rentals though. I've essentially seen nothing.

I recently caught Stranger Than Fiction. It is amazing. I did not know Will Ferrell could be so...wow. His character has such depth. Emma Thompson is in it also, which gave me implicit faith it'd be a stunner. It was. 

The moment that put the movie over the top for me was when Harold breaks out this 80s hit on his Fender Stratocaster

Wreckless Eric - Whole Wide World

Thursday, April 24, 2014

April 24: A New Day

After a major life event, it's always a bit of a shock to watch the world move along unaware of you. Life often bears no witness to our little happenings. Even our bodies ignore our need for a pause button or some recognition that we have been tested in our humanity. That we need a break from reality. Particularly from duty. 

The sun rises. The cats meow. I feed the cats. I make coffee. I pack Aria's lunch. I get her dropped by a friends so she can be brought to school on time. I commute to work, trying desperately to find a great song on the radio but mostly just singing along to any one I find that I know, flipping stations occasionally to find something better.

Work. (This needed its own paragraph. I spend a long time there.)

Home. Make dinner. Help with homework. Pop Aria in the shower. Read her stories. Massage her back. Haul both the garbage and recycling bins to the curb (a monster victory). 

Witness a glorious sunset between the houses across the street. Contemplate buying their homes just to tear them down and get a better sunset view. Scratch that and dream of a beach home while navigating the bins down the drive. 

The sun sets. The cats meow.

Duty is relentless. The mundane can be the best medicine for a fragile day. It affords us the simplicity of auto pilot. After an emergency lights only day, auto pilot is deliciously mundane.

Talking Heads - Once in a Lifetime



Wednesday, April 23, 2014

April 22/23: Flying

I kind of feel like I fell off the blogging wagon. I'm sorry, all. I had a big life event this week that has held my thoughts and free time hostage. 

What was this life event, you ask? I won't delve into details, but this is how it felt:
Princess Bride - The Machine

After being in emergency lights only mode, I'm free again mentally to give something in this space.  It's done.

Blackbird flying. And blogging again regularly. Promise. 

Sarah McLachlan - Blackbird


Tuesday, April 22, 2014

April 21: Small Town

If you grew up in the Midwest in the 80s, this song was an anthem. In an era where being from Iowa was more of a joke than a reality on a national scene, to have someone like John Mellencamp standing to support farms and vow to the beauty of small town life brought pride.

John Mellencamp - Small Town

Sunday, April 20, 2014

April 18-20 Mini Hiatus

Sorry all. I took a brief break over Easter weekend. I hope your holiday was magnificent also!!

The last few days, a few gems have shuffled across my iPod that I haven't shared before. I hope you enjoy!

Joni Mitchell - A Case of You

Friday, April 18, 2014

April 17: Love Messages

Aria told me tonight that on page 1 of the book of her life, it would say, "My mama loves me. I know because she tells me every day at least 50 times." 

I asked if she was sassing me. 

She said, "No. I'd love hearing it on the 51st time." 

Heavenly Day.

Patty Griffin - Heavenly Day

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

April 16: Prince

You have to respect a person known by a mononym.

Monarchs do it. Elizabeth. Charles. Diana. Fergie (heaven save us).

Men of religion: Jesus. Gandhi. 

Philosophers: Socrates. Plato. Aristotle.

Designers: Chanel. Armani. Valentino. 

Popes: John, Paul, John Paul, Benedict, Francis (and disciples for that matter are mononyms)

Bagillionaire Media Mogul: Oprah

Musicians:  Cher. Sting. Madonna. Beyoncé. Bono. Prince.

I told you sometime back in January that growing up that my room was wallpapered in Duran Duran posters (and cut-outs from Teen Beat magazines). My sister Laura used to have a thing for Prince. She had this poster of him in a white ruffled shirt and skin tight white pants. 

To me, it was a la Elvis in his jumpsuits. It wasn't my deal. I also swore I could see polkadot underwear through his pants. Prince is 5'2" and probably weighs 100 pounds dripping wet.

Every single ounce of him is filled with sex appeal. This I will admit freely. I will also admit I listened to the cassette of Purple Rain until it broke. 

But I still preferred my Duran Duran posters.

Prince & The Revolution - Kiss

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

April 15: Pink Moon

I don't know if I'm paying more attention in life, or if we are experiencing more events that are publicized and social media simply gives them a louder voice. 

An example is the polar vortex we experienced this winter. Another is the blood moon occurring via the eclipses happening now. Terms I hadn't previously heard but are now common vernacular. The media decides the terms that roll from our tongues.

One term I stumbled upon that is relevant today is Pink Moon. Tonight's full moon is literally called a pink moon. So I did some digging on what that means, in an effort to add my own knowledge to the mix so that self-realized terms may flow from my tongue along with these placed there by the media.

Apparently, Native American tribes would use moon phases to track the seasons, giving each full moon a name. Here's the cliff notes on the most common (and widely accepted) name for each moon:

January - Wolf Moon. Wolves howling in the cold. Makes perfect sense.
February - Snow Moon. Need I say more?
March - Worm Moon: Earthworms emerging and robins returning to gobble them up.
April - Pink Moon: One of the earliest growing wildflowers is moss pink (or wild ground phlox).
May - Flower Moon: April showers bring?
June - Strawberry Moon: Looking forward to this one!!
July - Buck Moon: Deer begin growing their antlers.
August - Sturgeon or Red Moon: The northern fishing tribes called it the Sturgeon Moon. Others called it the red moon as it rose through the sultry haze.
September- Harvest Moon: Time to bring in the corn.
October - Hunter's Moon: Time to store some deer meat for the winter to come.
November - Beaver Moon: The Native Americans trapped them.
December - Cold Moon: Long nights. Cold Earth.

Nick Drake released Pink Moon in 1972. He was dead (at 26) by 1974. What a tragedy. He didn't receive acclaim during his lifetime. It took a Volkswagen commercial in the late 90's to resurface his sound and introduce him to the world. I'm grateful the name Nick Drake can roll off my tongue, along with the explanation of what a pink moon is.

Nick Drake - Pink Moon


Sunday, April 13, 2014

April 13: Rainy, Dreary Sunday

It has rained all day. Aria had a friend over. I pretended to be busy but honestly couldn't tell you what I accomplished today.

Perfect day for Simon & Garfunkel - Bleecker Street.


Saturday, April 12, 2014

April 12: Smart Girls Are Sexy


I've seen Ingrid Michaelson twice in concert. She's talented and quirky. I love strong women who lead by example. 

Do you ever go see live music and think perhaps you should go drinking with the band afterwards? Ingrid and her band would be incredibly fun to hang with post-concert. 

The first show I caught, Ingrid closed with a cover of  Brittany Spears' Poison, and then a grunge-esque heavy metal rendition of The Way I Am. 

I won't let her pass through the area again without seeing her. And perhaps trying to catch a drink with her after. 

Friday, April 11, 2014

April 11: Girl Talk

Tonight involved a pizza party on my patio with several amazing girlfriends. Perfect weather. Abundant wine and food. Camaraderie. Bliss.

We spent a little time discussing my perpetual single status. There was general agreement that Iowa is a black hole for single moms to find a decent date. It is common for me to hear at least once per month that I should move to a coast (or Chicago at minimum) if I ever want to date again. Bleck.

I'm sticking with my girlfriends and my little lady for now.

One of my fantastic dating experiences was to the State Fair. My date and I caught Ben Taylor, Carly Simon and James Taylor's son performing in a little amphitheater this past summer. Ben was an interesting act. He had classic acoustic numbers that hooked you. He could be haunting when he wanted. Then he'd bring out his laptop and get techno. It wasn't my music. It must be hard to live in a parent's shadow. He needed a few more direct hit sunbeams to light up his heart. I wanted to hug him and feed him a baked good. (I have these thoughts about many people.)

I guess (sorry Ben) I still prefer his dad. This song is good, good music. Perfect to unwind to after an evening of festivities. Happy weekend!!

James Taylor - Fire and Rain

Thursday, April 10, 2014

April 10: Fever

A friend is in DC right now for business. He is posting pictures of the cherry blossoms around the Mall. I have DC jealousy so I decided to travel back in memory today...

My first time visiting DC, I was a senior in high school. I was privileged to travel with several other students as part of the Close Up program. 

We met our state senators at the Capital. We ate in Chinatown. We visited monuments. We shopped at the Disney store in a Mall (I was still more kid that pre-adult). We exchanged life experiences with kids from other states.


The trip made an incredible imprint on me. It was my first taste of the big broad world. Like climbing a mountain and touching possibility. I wanted to bottle and hold that possibility in my pocket to bring home and breathe in now and again when I needed to feel the breadth of it all in my chest because life was pushing in around me in ways that only teenagers can feel. I settled for a Goofy t-shirt.

Witnessing people who seemed filled with power. Who impacted the world beyond themselves in ways that wowed and inspired me. And ate ethnic food. And did business under ceilings that were more artistic than anything I'd ever been under before. My neck hurt from looking up all week. I didn't want to miss a nuance.

I was twitterpated. In some ways, the trip felt like I should have gotten a passport stamp - it was foreign and so, so delicious to me. 

On our last night before returning to Iowa, there was a party / dance that kicked off with a talent show. I was entirely too timid to sing or do anything in front of all the other attendees. 

This girl who was wallpaper until her mouth opened sang this song, all sultry-like. I remember being wowed by the sophistication of being sultry as a teen, and having the guts to display it amongst strangers. 

It has represented new horizons on my playlist ever since. Daring to expose facets of myself and try new things. I could sing this now in front of people. While slinking across a piano if wearing the right dress. Back then, it was a window shopping only song.

The song ended. The dance began. The Alabama kids requested Leonard Skynard. The Minnesotans and Iowans replied with Quiet Riot (a la We're Not Gonna Take It). It was a magical dance, in a teenage sense.

It was absolutely a heartrending descent from a mountain to return to Iowa. I later ascended that and other mountains again. I ended up moving to and working in DC in my early 20s. I'll share that story some other time.

This evening, enjoy some Fever. Today's weather brought about Spring fever in my world. I hope you have a fever that is hard to bear also.

Peggy Lee - Fever


Wednesday, April 9, 2014

April 9: The Mighty Miss


On this day in 1859, Samuel Clemens was granted his steamboat pilot license. He was 23 at the time, and had been an apprentice for a few years. He was on the water with the task of writing travel letters for a newspaper.  Along the way, he decided he’s rather be a pilot than a writer.

A pilot, in those days, was the only unfettered and entirely independent human being that lived in the earth. - Life on the Mississippi

He piloted boats for several years, until the Civil War stopped the River. He then returned to writing, outputting Tom Sawyer, Life on the Mississippi, and eventually Huckleberry Finn (which every child should read and lucky boys should be named after).

Fun fact: Mark Twain is a river term. Boatmen would call out to each other “Mark Twain” to let each other know if the river depth was shallow. Samuel decided the term suited his fancy, and when he began writing again, took the name Mark Twain. He used it for nearly 50 years.


My great-great-great grandfather was a Mississippi river boat captain. His name was Rob Roy Freeman. 

I sometimes fancy that Mark Twain stirs my blood because we were both born of the River. It could just be his wit – he is incredibly witty. 

I am a voracious reader, and haven’t really expounded on any favorite authors yet. Mark Twain is an American icon.


Tuesday, April 8, 2014

April 8: Closer to Fine

I spent part of my afternoon in a waiting room filled with people who appeared to be full of disgust. Parents angry with their children for acting as children. Teenagers carrying out an in-depth relationship with their phone while steadily ignoring their parents. Couples with arms crossed, treating each other with less respect than I show to strangers on the street. 

I witnessed all this as Aria massaged my shoulders, kissed me on the forehead and asked for a massage in return. We had a stressful appointment and her reaction was to create and receive comfort. 

I was wishing more of the waiting room inhabitants could treat each other with love. It's so cheesy as to be a chunk of Gruyere, but this world needs more love. 

I was trying to remember a time when I witnessed a large gathering of people filled with love. The Indigo Girls came to mind. I caught them in concert forever ago. Before they sang this, they told the audience to get ready to sing. And everyone did. With huge smiles on our faces. 

Perhaps that waiting room needs some better music. 

Regardless, the appointment passed. We survived with love in tact. Closer to fine. 

Monday, April 7, 2014

April 7: Put Me In Coach

Today was just a typical Monday for me. But for many baseball fans, it's opening day. 

I never played softball as a kid. I always got to spend a week or so at my dad's each summer, and I never wanted to be tied to a sport and perhaps miss the opportunity to see him. As a result, I can't throw a softball at the side of a barn and hit it. 

We had a small baseball field with covered bleachers where I grew up. It was a wonderful community pastime to cheer on our team. Sweat running down your back. Sitting by giggling girls being silly. Hoping my make-up hadn't run and my hair was still big (it was the 80s). 

We have the iCubs here in Des Moines. I catch a game now and again, but nothing beats the memories made in those bleachers in Pomeroy. (Think PG now, kids. I was a good girl.)

This felt appropriate today. It tastes like Americana, doesn't it?

John Fogerty - Centerfield


Sunday, April 6, 2014

April 6: All Good Things

Perfect for a Sunday evening. This is all I've got tonight: A great song and wishes for a wonderful week.

Jackson Brown - All Good Things


Saturday, April 5, 2014

April 5: A Little Magic

I spent part of today at a garden center creating a fairy garden with Aria. It's our second endeavor in the fairy realm.

Our first fairy garden, we created in an old radio flyer wagon we found at a rummage sale. It's a charmer:
Today's version is smaller, but equally enchanting.
The little red bike is my favorite feature:
It occurred to me today there is not nearly enough magic in the world. Or fairies for that matter.
I think J.M. Barrie had it right: “I do believe in fairies! I do! I do!” 
This song fit today's mood. Ane Brun is fantastic. Dare I say...magical?


Friday, April 4, 2014

April 4: Netflix Bender

Do you Netflix? Or Hulu? Or Amazon Prime? 

I have to make a confession: I go on Netflix binges. Like all out watch 3, 4, 8 episodes of <insert any great series here> from time to time. Orange is the New Black. Lark Rise to Candleford. Downton Abbey. The West Wing. X Files. I love it all.

Watching TV in any capacity is rather new to me. I'm almost giddy with this new found pastime. It's like pronouncing I've learned to ride a bike. I'm not all in just yet. I don't watch anything reality-tv related other than the Cake Boss. I prefer great writers and complex characters.

When I was a kid, TV was the Holy Grail. We had incredibly limited access to it. Saturday morning cartoons, a bit of IPTV (Mr. Rogers, Electric Company, Sesame Street, Captain Kangaroo) and we could pick one prime time show per week to watch. I invariably picked McGuyver. I loved the idea that a piece of gum and some duct tape could save the world.

My current obsession is Mad Men. Oh, I'm in equal parts love and hate with Jon Hamm. Heard this song on the show (a few years before it would have been released). I am not a huge Bob Dylan fan, but do like this one. It fit my mood tonight and thus I'm sharing it.

Happy weekend, all.

Bob Dylan - Don't Think Twice - It's All Right



Thursday, April 3, 2014

April 3: Ode to The Box

There are many, many things I adore about my chosen profession. "The Box" as I lovingly refer to my work place, is not one of them.

I work in a large corporate office. The hallways are reminiscent of The Shining. To get a cup of coffee involves 10 minutes of walking. I often lament that I'm not allowed to wear roller blades to work. On my exhausted days, a Segway seems completely feasible.  

There is white noise piped into our work spaces. Sensorily it sounds like the day after a concert. Without the fond memories. 

Many of my co-workers keep stadium blankets at their desks for days when the polar vortex moves indoors. I always find this to be the preferable side of the coin, as on the days when we are arid and baking, there is a point where you have to stop removing layers.

Each end of the building has a women's restroom with two stalls and one sink. The center of the building has a larger hub of restrooms. One outer restroom is next to the exit (next to Froggerland). The other is just outside the cafeteria and my beloved coffee shop. The center restrooms are next to nothing. Guess which restroom always has a wait? My mama taught me to use the restroom before each car trip, and to wash my hands before eating. It would seem every other Iowan woman was taught the same thing. The restrooms were designed by a man. Clearly.

To enter our building, or to leave our building to get to the coffee shop / cafeteria, there are revolving doors. You scan your security badge, a smarter-than-me British accented woman tells me to step into the door. If you step too briskly you will bang into glass. If you are too slow, you may be bent in the door frame as it revolves. I find a classic shuffle step is the appropriate rhythm to make it through the doors. Unless you are carrying a laptop bag. Then shuffle, ball change, shuffle hop works better. 

Our parking garage was created by someone who didn't drive. If you follow the signs, you will take 10 minutes to get out of the garage, and hit no less than 10,261 speed bumps along the way. 

To walk from the parking garage into the building, you have to walk across all the traffic trying to enter the parking garage. It feels very much like playing Frogger. 

The crosswalk (gosh - that makes it sound like traffic would stop for you - doesn't it?) is also built in a perfect wind tunnel. This insures that if you are wearing a dress or skirt, it can double for a shoulder shawl or head wrap as you Frogger your way across the crosswalk to the revolving door for entry to the building. I find nothing shows off my undergarments better than the weak fluorescent glow cascading from the building out over the crosswalk. 

It takes me less time to drive into work than it does to wind my way to the top floor of the parking garage (it's always full by 8 a.m.), Frogger across the crosswalk to the building, beep through British door lady, and sashay down the Shining hallway to my desk. Heaven forbid I should need a coffee once I arrive at work. 

If you should decide to visit my workplace, there is a lovely visitor parking lot. About a mile from the visitor's entrance. You will be tempted to enter through the revolving door (adjacent to the wind tunnel). This is for employees only. Continue on, fair visitor. Your entrance will come. Someday.The meandering path you take to arrive at your final destination? Clearly not designed by an Iowan who went outdoors in winter. Or perhaps one born without sweat glands and thus not bothered by the summers.

Oh, I adore my Box. Truly. 

This is one of my favorite Police songs. Shiny metal boxes that take us from home boxes to work boxes. I have a dream someday soon the weather will let me escape my boxes more for some outdoor time. A girl can dream.

The Police - Synchronicity II


Wednesday, April 2, 2014

April 2: Doors

Today is all about doors in my world.

I got two new storm doors for my front and back. They were long overdue. At the end of last summer, my battered screen door in the back lost its door handle. It just fell out. The door has a gaping screen, more kick marks than paint, and nary a handle to be seen. She was a real looker. 

Today, she went to the door graveyard. 

Before:                                                                          After:
                               

My front door was a serviceable (if ugly) white number that blocked view of my gorgeous Craftsman wood and beveled glass entry door. She was replaced with a clear glass number. I have warned Aria that dancing in her panties will now be more of a public affair.

Before:                                                                       After:

New mailbox, some paint and new house numbers will really make the front pop! I love small touches with big impact.

I had a garage door company come out and give me a quote also. I was in a new door kind of mood, so I sent him home with a deposit also. I have an old garage with carriage doors that are impossible to close on my own. I have had a bike, an air compressor, countless yard items from an electric edger to a rake stolen from my garage over the years. The thief will soon have to patrol other locales. I’m closing for business.

I have been loving these little changes around the house. Aria, however, is change adverse. We have lived here over 7 years. She mentioned tonight she’ll miss our door, as it’s seen us come and go for so long. It knows our songs (we always sing as we leave to greet the day). It assesses if our coat is the right one for the season. It welcomed us and sent us off every day with a good solid whap. We held a little memorial tonight to send it off.

If I hadn’t already put you through Night Ranger, I’d add Goodbye to the playlist tonight. Instead you get Pete Townshend. Lucky dog.

Pete Townshend - Let My Love Open the Door

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

April 1: Gifts

Aria kicked off her soccer season with new shoes and brownies to share with the other girls. She is rather insistent that every game needs a treat. That desire to bring joy has now spread to the practices as well as games. I cannot resist baking, nor these girls' smiles. Brownies are an easy gift to give and receive. 

Something that I introspect about often is the gifts that are a bit less sugary and palatable. Gifts that take grace, patience and acceptance to learn or master. Gifts that sometimes take years and distance to receive with understanding.

Some of my finest qualities, I fancy, come from lessons learned (often painfully) and intentional growth. I was not taught self-love as a child. Some things from healthy boundaries to asserting my own needs (especially when they conflicted with another's) was often messaged as selfish. Loving myself well has been a gift I've given myself as I've grown. It is also a gift I do my best to instill in my daughter. 

This snippet from Mary Oliver has lingered in my thoughts lately. I find her to be brilliant.

“Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness. It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift.” - Mary Oliver

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